Semi-trance

Hello everyone. Today finds me in the uniquest of moods: a combination of cynicism, contentment and an urgent desire for sudden surreal randomness that makes cosmic sense. It's a weird mood to be in. I've heard some of the craziest things lately... they don't bother me as such, but they're putting me in this mood, which is kinda intoxicating and, surprisingly, not at all unpleasant/disconcerting. That's what I mean. I like the mood. But it's weird.

It is imaginably a bit of an overload for a person who knows people from all the various opposite ends of the personality spectrum to try to understand all of them, and to figure out how to be around them so that they think you're a nice person. (That classic Charu sentence took a bit of time and effort.) That's part of how I feel right now. Overloaded. But I don't want to let it go, because it's a nice sort of overload. Also what's amazing is that the mood persists as I'm observing and documenting it. That usually never happens.

Great! I'm getting better at self-control. =]

Well, now that that's over, I would like to share a little haiku that I wrote the other night/morning. I was in this stoned-kind-of state (but I wasn't stoned... don't worry), half-asleep, seeing things move around me in the semi-dark, and it just sort of "popped into my head", to use the oft-used phrase. Strictly, it didn't "pop", it sort of slid in, like as if it was playing on a slow record. So after that pointless prologue, here it is.

I don't know if the lights are too bright, or the shadows too dark

But I can't see your face in front of me

I really can't find any words in my tingu vocabulary to describe how I felt when I thought this. The best I can come up with is semi-trance, induced without the help of any substance of any kind. Like I said once on Facebook, I don't need weed to get stoned. Holidays are enough.

I hate to end this post... I really want to say more! But there's nothing to say... =[ I feel like thoroughly expounding on this incredible mood I'm in right now, but I already have. =] For good measure, I'll put up the note I put up on Facebook, for the benefit of my non-existent (except for me) blog readers.

.....Today is a nice day.